Over the past couple of weeks and months, I kept finding myself looking at my stats and comparing them to previous months and every time I would do it I would feel discouraged to continue blogging. You would think I would have learned my lesson and wouldn’t check my stats as often – well, I haven’t.
Whenever I go to check on my blog, I always land on the page that shows me my stats so it’s pretty much the first thing I see every time. Which obviously isn’t going to help me with feeling better about the blog and what I am doing here.
I constantly feel like I’m not doing enough or well enough because the numbers don’t seem to reflect the work I put into blogging. Especially compared to the summer months when the blog was getting a lot more visitors and sometimes comments & likes too. But at the end of the day what gets to me most is the number of people who visit this blog on a daily/weekly/monthly basis.
Obviously, I love all of you guys a lot and I am so appreciative of every single comment you have left me over the past 10 months! I wouldn’t give that up for anything!
But I also want to see my hard work pay off. Because I do invest quite a lot of time into blogging and it seems like it isn’t reflected. And I know I shouldn’t be putting so much pressure on myself to reach certain numbers or that interaction with your readers is more important than just the number of people who stop by your blog.
I mean, I’m sure we’d all rather have 10 people stop by daily and all leave us a comment or like on a new post than have a hundred people come by and leave without ‘having left their mark’, right?
And even though that is something I wholeheartedly believe in and want for my blog I still stress over numbers a lot. Maybe it’s because I want to be able to get accepted for those really popular ARCs or maybe it’s as superficial as being able to say that you have x-amount of people visit your blog each week. I haven’t quite figured that out yet. It might be both.
We probably all have blogging insecurities and I think not being ‘good enough’ (mostly in my own eyes) might be my biggest insecurities. Comparing yourself to other bloggers is so easy to do. We constantly see all those awesome blogs out there and find ourselves wishing that our own little corner of the internet was more like theirs.
That we had their engagement with readers, their loyal following, their numbers, their opportunities, etc. It’s a really hurtful thing to do to yourself. Sometimes it’ll even suck the joy out of blogging because you constantly find yourself worrying about something.
I wish I was able to tell you guys how to fix this problem and how to get over worrying about numbers so much – but I don’t have an answer for it. I am still in the middle of it and can’t seem to quite see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet. All I know is that it’s something I want to and need to work on – especially if I want to continue blogging and have fun while doing it.
How about you guys? Do you find yourself worrying about numbers and whether or not your’s are living up to some sort of standard you’ve either set for yourself or you think others have set?
Or is it something you’ve come to accept as something that just is. Something that you don’t give the same amount of power as me? If so, do you have any tips on how to care about numbers less? Please let me know in the comments below and share any and all worries you might have yourself! I find that’s usually the best way to deal with them!