Evening everyone. 🙂
In all of my reading these past couple of days I’ve honestly completely forgotten to write a post for tonight or even really make plans for it, so I figured I would just do a bit of a ‘What I’ve been Up To’ type of posts and just talk to you guys a bit – hope that’s okay with you guys!
One of the first things I want to talk about is my overall mood lately. Towards the end of March, I had a couple of days where I didn’t take my medication for my depression (my sleeping was all over the place in the worst way and so I wasn’t awake in the morning to take said medication) and I quickly realized that I was beginning to feel stuff. Like, say something funny happened in a book – I would actually laugh. Same if something bad happened, I would feel sad.
There were all of these emotions that I hadn’t felt in months (and I hadn’t even noticed it???) and it’s like this switch was turned for me and suddenly my mood changed so much – for the better. I was feeling a lot more productive. I was feeling more and more emotions. So, I’ve decided to no longer take my medication. I don’t want to walk around life feeling numb.
I was talking to my mom about this earlier today and she’s still of the opinion that these medications do more harm than good and that I shouldn’t take them anyways but she was willing to listen to me and was happy for me that I’m able to stop taking them. I’ve said before how I don’t like being on medications like that daily and I’m really glad that I was able to go off them.
But unlike previously, I am now able to tell when something starts to feel off kilter and I know that I can talk to my doctor about it and get back on if need be.
I even feel like ever since I’ve been experiencing my own emotions more, reading has been more fun too! It’s not just this superficial reading experience that I feel like I’ve been having. Instead, I feel with the characters so much more and it’s awesome.
Yesterday, I got one of the most amazing emails I could have gotten: my wish for Leah On The Offbeat had been granted by the publisher on NetGalley and I had quite the emotional reaction to it. I don’t think I quite believed what I was reading in my own email but then once I saw the book right there on NetGalley, I started shaking and shedding a few happy tears.
I had been looking forward to this book for such a long time now and the fact that it was right there, at my fingertips, was just pure and utter joy that I couldn’t quite grasp for a little bit.
Funny thing! Back in March of 2017 I had been approved for an eARC of The Upside Of Unrequited which is how I had been introduced to Becky Albertalli. Unfortunately, I didn’t end up enjoying the book as much as everyone else but it lead me to Simon VS The Homo Sapiens Agenda (and we all know how I feel about that one) and now all of this has come full circle just over a year later.
It’s really quite amazing the things blogging will introduce you to! Never in a million years would I have thought I’d find myself in a situation like last night where a simple email would affect me so much and yet there we were!
There will be a review for Leah going up on the blog on Monday but if you just want to know whether or not I enjoyed the book: YES. Do I think everyone should get it too? YES, ABSOLUTELY. PLEASE DO. I can’t wait to talk all about the things I absolutely loved and the few things that ended up bothering me come Monday! I hope you guys are as excited as I am. 🙂
I honestly don’t even know how to wrap up this post, you guys. Is it weird if I thank you guys for letting me talk about this? I mean, it’s not like I asked you – I just posted this. But I feel like there are people out there reading this and caring about how I, personally, feel and that’s a nice thing to keep in mind. Thank you!